If you have never heard this word you are either a brat or dumb as fuck but if you have heard it and it’s never been directed to you, you are perfect. I think I just lived the worst week of my life this week and it’s only getting worse. My dad is dying from throat cancer is what we found out in Wednesday, if the radiation doesn’t work which is 6 weeks every day he will die. I also was told no by a school there is only one school I wanted to go to that I worked so hard to get into for 3 years and I was told no you aren’t good enough, it feels like a canon ball hitting your chest, to be told your not good enough, and we don’t want you after u worked so hard, what is the point of even life is there is nothing to live, I wake up every morning to survival that day and go to bed and wake up to survive another day, there is nothing for me to work for, strive for, live for. I don’t know what I was meant for, or why I was put on this earth but I need some sign soon or I don’t really want to be on this earth anymore.